@Lyrikal Vixen

LONELINESS


AS  I  SIT ALONE ON THE SWING SET,
STARRING AT THE PEOPLE
WHO COULD BE MY FRIENDS.
SCARED TO SEE ME,
AS THE MONSTER IVE BECOME.
TRYING TO MAKE THEM STAY,
AS THEY RUN AWAY.
HOPING, PLEADING
THAT THEY WILL STAY, PLAY, AND LOVE ME.
I USE ALL MY STRENGTH TO HOLD THEM BACK,
THEY FIGHT AND I END UP HURTING THEM.
KICKING, SCREAMING ,
BLOOD IS EVERYWHERE.
MY VISION TURNS RED,
I SCREAM HOLDING ON .
MY TEDDY IS STARRING AT ME, MY ONLY FRIEND,
I COLLAPSE ON THE FLOOR.

LOVE N HATE


I LOVE YOU BUT I HATE YOU .
I LOVE TO HATE YOU BUT I HATE TO LOVE YOU.
THE HATE I FEEL IS TO COVER UP THE LOVE.
IF I HATE YOU THEN YOU WONT KNOW I LOVE YOU .
IF I LOVE YOU THEN YOU WONT KNOW I HATE YOU.
WHY CANT I LOVE TO LOVE YOU .
WHY CANT I HATE TO HATE YOU.
THERE’S NO LOVE WITH OUT HATE .
THERE’S NO HATE WITH OUT LOVE.
IF YOU DON’T LOVE YOU END UP HATING.
IF YOU DON’T HATE YOU END UP LOVING.
WHERE THERE’S LOVE THERE’S HATE.
WHERE THERE’S HATE THERE’S LOVE.
MAYBE YOU CAN HAVE A LITTLE HATE AND A LOT OF LOVE.
MAYBE YOU CAN HAVE A LITTLE LOVE AND A LOT OF HATE.
EITHER WAY YOU HAVE SOME LOVE, SOME HATE.
IS THERE A SUCH THING AS HATEFUL LOVE?
A SUCH THING AS LOVABLE HATE?
WHO KNOWS, WHO CARES?
I JUST KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU BUT I HATE YOU .


LOVE


LOVE IS NOT JUST SOME 4 LETTER WORD
WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU THEY LOVE YOU IT’S COMING FROM THE HEART.
IT’S NOT LIKE YOUR SPECIAL,OR I CARE IT’S SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT .
IT’S THE HIGHEST LEVEL OF AFFECTION BEFORE YOU’RE CONSIDERED A STALKER.
LOVE IS WHAT WE SPEND OUR WHOLE LIFE SEARCHING FOR.
IT CANT BE EXPLAINED BUT ONLY DESCRIBED AS A STRONG FEELING.
ONCE YOU EXPERIENCE IT NOTHING COMES CLOSE.
 THE FIRST LOVE YOU EXPERIENCE IS THE  HARDEST ONE TO LOSE.
IF LOST PAIN IS THE NEXT EMOTION FELT.
  IT IS BETTER TO HAVE LOVED AND LOST IT THAN TO HAVE NEVER HAD IT AT ALL.
WHEN LOST IT IS HARD TO LET GO ,BUT SOMETIMES IT IS NECESSARY.
SO YOU DISCOVER ANOTHER FOUR LETTERED WORD:HATE, BUT THAT’S ANOTHER STORY…… 

DAME UNIQUE

@Dame_Unique

BY DAME UNIQUE


A MILLION




I could type a million words and still won’t be able to display how I feel.


I could sing a million notes, and yet one won’t understand.


I should relax for a million days, and maybe someone may notice I’ve left?


I once walked a million miles, and by chance someone caught up.


I was thinking about dancing to a million tracks, only I’ve got 500.


A million moves, in a million times, over a million years & I remain in one place
Posted 4 days ago


If ever I


If ever there was a moment in time I could re-live, it would be my moments with you.
The times we kissed,
Were like a trip to another dimension,
Everything around us so serial, like a Dali statuesque…So beautiful.


If ever I could hold your hands
Feel you caress my skin
Like a night in satin sheets…so loving


If ever I could re-live a moment
It would be that moment you said “Dominique I love you” like the ocean singing on a starry night…so dreamy


If ever I could re-live a moment would be the first time we made love.
Like a golden screen movie scene…so passionate.


If ever I could re-live moments would be all that I had with you, like a diamond in my heart hand crafted by us two.


If ever I, If ever I…If ever I stop remembering moments…Surely we can create more


WHEN I DIE


Two aspects of life guarenteed, I was born, I’m living, eventually shal die!
When I die, will you cry…? And if so why?
I make you happy right? Even through hard times, I do my best to apologise…only I’m stuck…
When I die, please note your forgiven and I love you! Always have although I hardly show.
When I die, smile and ill know…be happy I’m in heaven with the angels of family and friends past…when I die sing and dance by the mass…
Enjoy life every moment, dye your hair blue…do what I did one day or even better do u!
When I die, imma be smiling over you, every last one family, friends, foes! Imma keep u close…
When I die, remember I told u “life,….life is a blessing…enjoy the moment u have with life…as u don’t know the time you have to say bye…don’t go sleep on a arguement kiss and make up….be sad if u want but don’t let evil break up!…remember Unique said life is like a drop of rain,….warm, cold, ice,….sometimes pain….laughter…every emotive game”

When I die, ill be with you always in spirit x

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MORE Lyrikal Vixen

SONG CRY

I can’t see em’ coming down my eyes so I gotta make this song cry,I cant see my eyes anything but dry so I gotta make this song cry.

Life as a kid wasn’t anything but ruff. Seeing mama in the kitchen snorting that stuff. She did what she had to keep us all off the streets. Sold herself to strangers just so we could eat. She held her head and swallowed her pride. Laid next to strangers for a place to sleep just for the night. Got into fist fights damn near every day. Because mama had sex and for that she got paid. Things got worst and mama got sick. After all the years of sucking that glass dick. Went to get help but never stuck to it. Had big dreams but never would pursue it. Nowhere to live and not a place to stay. In and out of shelters just going day to day.  Many mistakes made with no lessons learned at all. But I’d be damned if you’ll ever see a tear fall.

I can’t see em’ coming down my eyes so I gotta make this song cry,I cant see my eyes anything but dry so I gotta make this song cry.

As we got older we thought it would get better. Not knowing that was the drizzle of bad stormy weather. More kids, more drugs and more wrong decisions. The older we got the more we seemed to witness. Sum habits were given up for new ones to be gained. The parents smoking dope and the kids selling cocaine.  The bigger kids left but the younger ones stayed. Hoping that with time the bullshit would change. Future years brought improvement but struggles remained. So I put my shit on paper and let the pens tear ease my pain. I got on my knees, prayed with hands folded to the sky. Asking god to cancel his plans and keep my fam safe at night. Even with bad times lurking I refused to stop. And for the sake of the children I never let a tear drop.

I cant see em’ coming down my eyes so I gotta make this song cry,I cant see my eyes anything but dry so I gotta make this song cry.

LyricalVixen hit me on twitter @lyrikalviXen

Lyrikal Vixen

Lyrikal Vixen

I’M OKAY

     

Sitting here starring at sad grey skies,

Never thinking that I would have to say goodbye.

U were my best friend so no one can ever take your place,

But I’ll never understand why god took you away.

My smile will never curl quite the same,

Till I’m up in heaven starring at your face

I cried many a nights & you’re still not here,

I thought it would get better with each tear.

But it never got better it just got worse,

Not even time could heal my hurt.

Walking around like shit don’t faze me,

Tryna act like they didn’t just take away my baby.

My memories store things I cannot replace,

But in my heart you hold such a special place.

Soon I’ll be able to get it altogether,

Cause after da rain it’s always rainbow weather.

Losing your love only made me stronger,

But I only wish you could have stayed a little while longer.

Swear you were only here a short amount of time,

And now I’m lucky enough to have you as an angel in the sky.

It makes me smile thinking how we use to act,

But some tears I shed cause I’ll never have that back.

 Know even though I cry I know you’re in a better place

I choose to carry on because you would have wanted it that way.

Tears fall but don’t worry I feel no pain.

Just waiting for the day I get to shoot the breeze wit you again.

I can’t quite put into words just what to say,

So I’m just writing to tell you………… I’m Okay.

STONE

this evenin
by Simon Stone

If I reach
If I approach
If I seek
what I need the most
If I speak
If I don't
If I am weak
I dream of being soaked 
there is only a garden
with me and you
dance to a romance tune
I enter your mind
as the sky darkens
what can I do?
make use of a lonely room
interlocked grind
when I arrive
When I touch
when I feel
I have waited so long
when I count 5
When I admit I want so much
when I reveal
passions song
this evening might I
this evening I must
this evening this time
this moment this night I
won't let go u can trust
your hand fits mine
interlocked grind
-stone
@DECATURSTONE

BY DARIAS LANHAM

Period Piece

I am a dot in the novel of existence

Yet I can create and destroy an idea simply by my placement

An emergency brake on your Train of though

Splattering your dreams on the windshield of reality

Poetry's careening eloquence is too wild to tame

Using. Me. As. Pregnant. Pauses. instead of allowing me to dictate form

Streams of consciousness cannot be dammed by dots in existence

Only to overflow memory banks with the primordial essence

Redefining my place in language's celestial menagerie

To that of the literary meteorite burning bright across the sky

Only to pale in comparison and fizzle out amongst Creation

Numb

If I told you I died a thousand times would you believe

Heart made of concrete from being treated like sidewalk

People stepping over my pain like a bum in the street

Dead on my feet numb from the drug of Experience

Exhilarating depressant making me ignorant of Agony

Tapestry of Illusion making me look Positively into the Unknown

Hopping into Hurt and Ecstasy without a care

Dare I slip across the crystal stair with nothing to brace my fall

Laying my life on lines to make shapes from inkblots 

Just to tell you peep what I wrote---- Ain't that egotistical?

Just as Sorrow is selfish in its Solitude

I am selfish in my own self deprecation 

Sacrificing my self on crucifix's I don't need to bare

Just to tell the world "BEHOLD! An artist's struggles"

If my altar were as big as my Ego I'd burn for a thousand moons

Tomb built with walls of Alliteration trapped by the muse....

Off Topic (Ayn Rand)

I feel like screaming; and thats if anyone can hear

In this world void of individuals deaf from Conformity

No one can hear you scream in the Deep Space known as Humanity

Living dark matter existing as solitary parts of a mundane whole

Who will cry for Mavericks trailblazing

Using solar flare's as Highways to Ever After

Only to crash in an Alien Matrix you call the Adult World

My only responsibility is to procreate thought Impregnating spirits 

Cultivating embryo's of Free Thought in Barren Mental Wombs

Resurrecting God from Mere Man; damn your petty 9 to 5

My degree is in Liberation; escaping falsehoods of rigidness

Mutable Life Essence transforming through Existence

I am.... Everything that is because what was is my Potential

Soul on Ice trying to avoid becoming a Soul On Fire

Lest I am consumed by my Passion; engulfed in flames of Expression

In a Kamikaze dance with Destiny throwing Could Be's to the Wind

Allow me to relish in the sensual; tasting the wine of Decadence that is

Genius.... Mercurial mind threatening status quo

With quicksilver synapses exchanges; my mind is my gun

Blood of revolution drips from tongues before war is tasted

Forecasting hollow tip showers with a chance of heartbreak

So is the Destiny of the malleable non conformist

Transforming so much we wander the Deep Space of Humanity

Like comets with no home....

The Lonely Poem

Let me touch you; don't be selfish with your Grace

Who'll sing a song for a lonely Poet

That writes love songs for women he can only desire

Who hangs on emotional ledges only to commit Suicide

In relationships limited to fascination always ending with missed calls and voicemails

I can't express my daily heartbreaks in words, searching for perfection

Leaves me pissed off and disappointed, envying those who settle for less

At least their beds aren't empty at night

Mentally masturbating in a pillows faux embrace

I can almost taste the Untouchable Tangible on my lips

Heart melts I'm Heart Felt my Heart BREAKS it starts over again

So I can't love her because being her love-er means I'm starting over again

But her doesn't exist to me until I pull her in my sheets

So I leave my contacts at longing touches and deep gazes

Wishing for more but unable to explore the hearts abyss

Lest the dark place holds something I can't control....

BY DARIAS LANHAM

*NEW POEMS* FROM DARIAS LANHAM

Naked

As the silhouette of your curves slides through the shadows

Light sneaking through windows illuminating my anticipation

Show your eyes as penetrating and mine as submitting, longing in the mirror

Hungering for something deeper than, but as shallow as the carnal

You don't reject the imperfect prose of my naked form

As the honesty of your bare skin makes you living art

Your are intimidating yet vulnerable; filthy and divine

As we are purified by the flames of unrequited lust

Ashes to ashes my soul turns to dust as your oral alchemy

Transmutes orgasmic death into sensual rebirth

The pulsations of your Love Below reverberate on my lips like a Speakerboxx

And all was swallowed lost in the bass of a heartbeat

Guitar licks of your tongue making melodies on my nerves

Turning my moans into pleasure itself personified

And you become deified as my Aphrodite and I'm....

Just Hephaestus under your hips; I'd fall from Olympus

To be a god reduced to your super powered sex slave

Who care's for the next day when our eternity is now?

And the only regret is that this very eternity we feel is finite

So as I sink into your sheets like black ink my only request

Is that you use my instrument to express our poetry to the world

Ikarus Never Flew

If I died tonight my sarcophagus would be gilded by broken dreams

Transformed into a fools gold to cover my faults

Ikarus that never flew staring through his prison tower window

Wondering if lift off would be worth it at all

Forced to crawl, but if my protests against this world are wrong

I'll never be right and accept the slavery of your limitations

Superman exists with kryptonite chains of law and disorder

With psychological borders as imaginary as  state lines

The same state lines blocking my freedom

But I'd gladly leave this mausoleum of comfort and chance the living world

Dead on arrival at birth... I still was born

Simply to die, trying to live and fill

The dash on my gravesite with some form of significance

Greatness isn't a goal its the only

Die enormous over living dormant and lonely

Envying the success of those who cloned me

While the original record gathers dust amongst samples and remixes
BY DARIAS LANHAM, NOM DE PLUME OHINI JONEZ

@JILLZWORTH

follower of the third eye... dwell in composed shadows of thought... 7T8flows were spit and I came forth... 126 reasons were hand delivered, therefore I am... Quiet and peep the game! Shhh... do you hear that? be still. Can you feel that? What I have to say I can't express in mere words... the vibe will do it for me. energy is so powerful it pulls me backwards inside myself to when I was conceived... when I was just power. power alone. then power was born. now-born power must rule. Open up and allow me to feed you my soul. devour it, love it and feel my creative control. Let me illuminate all thoughts through my eyes... eyes so bright the stars blink in shame. Let me introduce myself... I'm "KnowWon." What I contain yet has no name. Anonymous expressions are exposed when I sweat. I sweat life, I bleed passion and I cry regret. I'll wrap you up in the night so darkness seduces your mind. I'll caress your spirit with light... time is released when two elements intertwine. Look up, inhale and absorb all my glory... The sun is really my daughter disguised full of hate... that's why she burns everyday hotter. using the sky as her background, her canvas, her throne. Clouds are my signature... I signed and delivered. Perish all thoughts of defeat, my words alone cannot be conquered. Feed off of my hope for one minute and never again will you hunger. Just one sip of my desire and your thirst will forever be quenched. When I whistle you hear the wind blow. Hear my songs and remember - power was born, power remains and power resurrects 6 days into December. Shhh... do you hear that? Never will you be able to. close both eyes and use the third to guide you. I am all that's in existence. I'm the courage built inside of you. If I stop smiling we all die, for my laughter is the rhythm that you follow. I fell in love with yesterday, made love to today and gave birth to tomorrow. Abstract intentions were never meant, this is the vision that came to on it's own. Be still... can you feel that? Power was here so knowledge was born...

Dark rooms are quiet, walk in and give it meaning. I wait for you, come to me, talk to me, make love to me. I fiend to feel your presence, your essence, your ever changing style with the progression. feed me your vibe so I can taste you. you can't, I can't, but I feel you. You heal me... my soul, my mind, my everything in existence... persistent to join you, absorb you, and breathe you. man, I can't smell you or touch you, but you remind me of those... a mere utter, a word, a sound, don't oppose... to seduction of thoughts, intrigue me through sound... I'm bound by your beauty, omnipresent, surround. Always with me, forever, it's destined. I pay my R-E-S-P-E-C-T with these words, can you hear me? I love you. My feelings on paper, my pen brings us closer... but I have to share you, you're plural in all forms. sink in me and flow through my consciousness. If I can paint what is perfection, the subject would be thee. You're non-existent in the physical. You remain the worlds most wanted, the most loved, the most hated, desired and aggravated. You've caused battles and rivalries, ignorance and wars. You're still followed, wished to master and proposed to. with every word you release you satisfy more curiosity. sweet music drips on me and saturate my feelings. intertwine snares, bass lines, treble and kicks to cause audible tantrums and explode into... my life

Start the evaluation of our creation, sought after elevation... the penetration of words has me checking pronounciation... manipulation of all sensations, begin the mind invasion... for the conscience fights to follow the light, realize the correlation... between how all sits in existence, moving forward, sweating persistance... the distance seems greater if you accept and hold on to the resistance - for instance, my mental travels backwards in slow motion... the third eye blinks life and follows the light to reject total corrosion - female species with the entire human race inside my womb... keep my persona assorted making it less likely to assume - produce thoughts composed of substance bound together by mere visions... subliminal lacerations that were provoked by mic incisions - shifted the solar system and formed my own constellation... impregnated with rhymes by musical ejaculation - let's re evaluate the situation and see what the outcome wll be... since math is life, everything minus nothing equals ME - comprised of elements that could melt fire and liquify water... moons give life to suns and sons give birth to daughters - my soul is my shield to hold back anything without substance... the first element is depth, underground in mass abundance - I died last night and with this pen I was ressurected... the ink's my lifeline, as paper absorbed lyrics injected - after I take over the world, I'm turning all the planets into suns... so they can all shine like me and reproduce with rays instead of cum - the definition of all, yin and yang define me... the source of life's course will be freed while minds bleed - I just checked the human race, no cash or COD's... do the math, God + sound = lyrical purity...


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Once Again

He left me today.

Of course it has happened before

But this time feels different.

It is different.

More permanent than ever before.

I feel so empty,

So crushed

My heart hurts so much.

It’s hard to write because my sight is clouded due to the tears.

He really left me.

He is gone for good.

I have to try and think positive

Maybe it was for the best

Or we are not ready

Or even if it’s meant to be than it will. (You know the usually)

But I say screw all of that.

I want him back.

Now! 

Flaws and all.

How could I lose the man that I feel the safest with?

His arms around me make me feel

Complete

Whole

Safe

Loved

I can be free with him.

And now he is gone.

I try to be tough but I can’t.

I am alone once again.

Maybe it is suppose to be this way.

I have to move forward,

Push this defeat behind me.

I have to let it go.

Once again my love wasn’t good enough...

I Lost Today

Was unaware I was playing, but defeat is still the same.

Tired of this never ending cycle

Here I am.

Confused as to what emotion I should feel.

Hate

Betrayal

Loneliness

Everything screams to run away, but my heart.

My heart has grown very attached to this man.

And this he knows. For he owns it.

I just want to be wrapped head to toe in your love.

Your embrace.

To never leave.

Only you can quench my thirst for this amazing feeling called love.

But I think it’s time to face the facts.

I am not the girlfriend just the friend girl.

I tend to get the roles confused from time to time.

But at the end of the day you are not mine. And you are free to do whatever you like.

Is she just that great?

Just that awesome?

That you would lose me in the process…

We both lost today, but I forfeited.

Breaking Away

I’m so afraid

Needing to rid myself of your poison

Abuse

Mental and verbal

So Vicious, Unrelenting, Condescending

Tear after tear, argument after argument

Left feeling unwanted, useless

Inferior to your self-proclaimed superiority

A rushing feeling of pain fills my heart

The same heart I have offered to you

That you accept and decline at your leisure

Those words, your words

Kick, Punch, Bite, Scratch

They have left me bloody, bruised and battered

Loneliness scares me so much that I often wonder if it’s just my imagination

I mean can you really have all you want in a mate.

Some things can be overlooked right?

God please guide me into the direction I belong, because I’m scared

Scared to break away and leave all that I know.

Pleading

Please pick me

Tell me I’m beautiful

Let this work so I know that I am not broken

Want me

Love me

Provide me with the assurance that it is me over all others.

Don’t let me be alone

Be my rock

Be the lap upon which I lay my head after fighting against the world all day.


Be the hand that smoothes my hair in an effort to comfort me

Please be the ears, shoulders, and arms I need to help lift the worry that runs 


through my head.

I beg you

Want me enough to accept me as a work in progress.

Will these untamed emotions into something more stable

Include me in your future


This is my plea to you


Help me to realize that I am capable of having the love I so desire.

Be that for me

Ease the pain of my failures

Never Have I Ever

I never meant to start this shit.

How did we get here, to this very point?

To where I am dreaming of your hair, your skin, your mouth.

Can’t seem to shake the images of you and I entangled in our web of love, known only to the two of us.

It was my secret, it was our secret

Though you wanted to share it with the world, I cowardly declined.

“What would they think?” I said. While my eyes pleaded for you to just drop the whole idea and continue with things the way they were.

But you wouldn’t, you couldn’t

You wanted more and more and more from me.

You were willing to hide us no longer.

“I don’t understand these feelings!” I yelled to you on more than one occasion.

Unable to wrap my mind around the degree of a love such as ours, although I could feel it firsthand.

Damn P, I swear to you this wasn’t planned

Endless Cycle

I love him

I want to be with him

He love me

He wants to be with me

But

He doesn’t think I’m ready

I don’t yet fit into his mold

So

I’m left with an intense friendship.

Which includes many ups and downs

Just like any other

But

No commitment 

My significance

Nowadays it seems our bad moments outweigh the good.

I’ve tried to hold on to the good times, but my grip is slowly easing.

My desires and expectations for our relationship are well known.

They just fall on deaf ears.

Some of your actions leave me thinking do you really love me.

You hardly ever say it

And I’m having a hard time remembering the last time you showed it.

I feel like you don’t respect me and I am not important to you.

I am not to be an afterthought.

I am your woman.

You should want to please me.

I shouldn’t have to fight or beg for your attention and time.

You put everyone and everything before me.

You once told me I was # 4 or 5 on your list of importance.

If that is actually the case, I would hate to see how you treat # 6 and so on.

It’s like you don’t care how you make me feel.

I admit once we became a couple I expected more.

More love, attention, and time.

You don’t touch me.

You don’t acknowledge me as an important figure in your life.

You want things your way and only your way.

You have proven that my feelings don’t mean much to you.

I have tried.





Essence of My Deep South

Enter the place known by few, but worshipped just the same.
Relax and become entranced with the essence of my deep south.

Go along proven trails, but please become enticed to create your own.
For it is not as fragile as you may think.
For it has endured boycotts as well as raging fires
That was later extinguished by the most powerful among fire hoses.

 Catfish and cornbread fed and pulses to the distinct rhythm of the Blues.
Plunge into the ever so warm waters of the gulf, while embracing the hot and sticky humidity, please be careful not to let it drip, the essence of my deep south that is.

As you visit feast upon the delectable cuisines laid before you. As I offer you a drink from my cup, with a liquid so wet it can quench any thirst.
While on your journey I advise you to be careful. For you are just a visitor getting to know the essence of my deep south.